You know, as well as I do, that when you use words like "Always" and "Never", the likelihood of these words to come and "bite you in the butt" are very high. Take my chemo treatment of last year for instance: after I was done with it in May, I said: "Never again!".
On my latest MRI in January it showed that I had a blocked bile duct (possibly resolved, not 100% sure about that) and that in the interval since I had the Nanoknife surgery of last September, no less than 7 new "lesions" have developed in my liver, possibly being malignancies. During the last visit with my oncologist, she decided to (finally) consult a liver specialist in another province. This man phoned me almost immediately. He was very courteous and to the point and stated that he would most definitely take me on as a patient to remove the diseased part of my liver, provided no surgeon in our province would handle my case. He also suggested that it would be best to go back on chemo in the interim. So guess what? Yes, I am back on chemotherapy, a slightly different protocol than the one I was on last year. While the physical side effects are manageable, the emotional toll is much harder to deal with this time around. To date I have not heard back from any surgeon's office whether or not I will get to be operated on. So in the mean time, I keep swallowing chemo pills and I'm living in limbo...again.
Not sure when I'll be back, next week maybe? Take care! SanTeh!
You are right about the “never say never” statement. One never knows what they will do until they actually are confronted with a difficult choice. I want you to know that your sharing has spurred on many a conversation with my friends or Ross. I think of you every day sister in law and love you lots.
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Thank You very much Sharon! Dialogue is exactly what I want! Love You too!
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